I enjoy the lifestyle. It is very regimented. There is a lot of planning and control. Stuff I LOVE (which as I've said before is certainly not always good!). There is always room for improvement. Destination events for competition exist. All of this sounds very familiar to triathlon, eh?
Probably the most shocking thing to me was how much I enjoyed being onstage. This actually was part of the reason why I did this. I am really quite self-conscious and never liked people looking at me. Odd, huh? Why would such a person choose to be in a figure competition where hundreds of eyes are on you? Precisely for that reason! I've figured out in life that the best way for me to get over myself is to do exactly what it is that I am afraid of. I suppose similar to the therapy employed to rid one of phobias; ie slowly draping that huge massive snake around your neck!
My show in Madison went better than I expected. I am in figure competition shape right now. Plus, I don't even want to say how much money I spent on that silly posing suit! Since I was brought up right by my momma, I need to get my money's worth out of that suit. Hence, I'll give it a go ONE MORE TIME!
No joke, after that I'm back on the tri bus. I just told my tri coach, 'I am a shell of the triathlete I used to be.' I can still slog it out. But, there is no fire in the tank, no reserve, no gusto. I knew this would happen. You cannot be all things at one time. I chose to put triathlon on hold for a few months and try something different. Of that, I am truly happy and proud. But, I am looking forward to getting back out there. I've got to move!
I am super excited about this show. It will be bigger. Pro level competitors will be there competing in their own division. I can't wait to see them! Plus, big bonus, I will be competing with about 8 other girls I met when I started this whole thing 6 months ago. We all were in a posing seminar that met monthly. I think we're all a good rock of support for each other.
12 days to go!
My diet and workout plans going into these last few days will be basically the same as they were for the Madison show. That is a relief actually. I know the drill. Familiarity is comforting. When the goal is to peak in triathlon, that is similar to figure/bodybuilding competitions. I hope to REALLY peak for this show. Time will tell and I'm super stoked to give it another go!
|My coach, Kim, and I after the Madison show|